So Many Questions...

My friends!  It's been a while!  Things have been hectic, what with the kids back in school and work in full swing it's been your typical start of fall.  I hope this blog finds you well.  I have a few moments now to share something that I am struggling with.  Yesterday a neighbor a few doors down killed herself.  She left a husband and 3 adult children behind.  I must confess I did not know her well.  Sure, there was the neighborly wave, the "hey, how you doing" at the local supermarket, but I never went above and beyond that.  I do not know what caused her to take her life...what depths of despair she was in for thinking death was the only answer.  All I can think about is her children and husband and what utter pain they must be in.  I have so many questions!  Perhaps if I had reached out to her or taken the time to get to know her...I just don't know.  I know we serve an awesome God and that only He truly knows the reason, but it seems the enemy won that battle with her.  Growing up in a Catholic school, we were taught that if you took your life you would go to hell.  I find it so hard to take in. I want to believe our Holy Father still gives us a chance and my Pastor told me today that the bible does not say they go to hell, it does not speak of it.  I can only hope that my neighbor accepted Christ into her life and that she is God's hands right now and that her pain has stopped.  I pray now for her family and I ask God to help me reach out to those around me, to not let "life" pass me by without stopping and really getting to know people.

Oh, why?
There's no comprehending
And who am I to try to judge or explain?

("Why" by Rascal Flatts)

Pink Mama Out.